slim me up fast

Ok, so in an effort to slow the steady rise on my bathroom scale, I started slimfast. I know, typically people don't do that when they are pregnant, but I assure you that I have gained enough weight for two healthy pregnancies and that the baby will get plenty from the slimfast. As will I, actually. So far, it's working. And even though I have been in the typical I'm not getting enough to eat mood, I'm glad it is. My body will realize in the next little while that it doesn't require an eighth of what it thinks it does. So...until next time ladies...

I'm back...but still fat.

I'm gonna keep on going here - at least for a while...

I'm actually feeling better already. Im 12 weeks but usually my sickness lasts until 16 weeks. Now I'm only sick in the mornings - and anyone can handle that!

When ever I'm trying to lose weight I make littler inspiration sheets to hang up in the kitchen. I made this today for inspiration:



I'm pretty happy about it. Now to see if it will work! I went jogging/walking today. It was the first time since I got sick a couple months ago - I've just been swimming. It was HARD. But my body could use a little more HARD!!!

mini-me and my vain blog

While browsing through some old photos I found this one of me from Thanksgiving 2 years ago. It's mini-me! It has gotten to the point lately where I can't remember what I used to look like and also can't believe I'll ever be my old self again. I need images like this to give me faith that I can do it!

So, I've been swimming still and I'm becoming a big fan. I like how I don't get hot and my joints don't hurt. I also like the sound of the water. After I'm not sick anymore we'll see if I'm up for some jogging as well.

And finally, lately I've been wondering how vain this blog is. I know that happiness is not based on weight or pants size and so I don't want this to seem an obsession with either. I was hoping this would detail my journey back to a healthier, fitter me. But sometimes it digresses and becomes about weight. This past weekend I was visiting my in-laws and in their church congregation is a young mother who just found out she only has a few months left of her life. I felt terrible realizing how petty I've become lately. Feeling like a true blessing is more a trial. These things I worry about aren't really important. I hope that after reading this blog you don't get off and feel worse about yourself. That you aren't overly concerned about your body. My original hope was just the opposite. That you'd see that if I could get healthy - anyone could. I still believe that being healthy is really important - that keeping my body in shape will make the rest of my life more full - and that of my family's as well. I need to remember that. Especially on days where I feel like it's me against the candy bar. Anyhow, just some thoughts...

Well, well, well...

If you hadn't heard yet - this story of weight loss just got a lot longer. I found out about a month ago that I am pregnant again. That would be a great joke, wouldn't it? But I'm not kidding, it's true. Even though I've know for a while it still feels insane to write that. Anyhow, I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with those races. I am pretty sure the Halloween one is off. I have just been too sick. I am swimming because it is the only thing that doesn't sound too bad. The cool water makes me feel better. Though the other night I pushed a little too hard and wanted to die for the rest of the night. So, I'll be having this baby before my current one even turns one. Talk about being fat. My goal is to gain less than 10 lbs. I really shouldn't gain ANY since I'm currently 40 pounds overweight. We'll see. I will be happy with just gaining ten or less because I'd actually need to lose some fat in order to accomplish that.

Wow. This is crazy, isn't it? Three pregnancies in a row can get old real quick.


p.s. Of course it wasn't planned!